true that i saw her hair like the branch of a tree

Popping this in here just to let you know Honey in the Marrow is leaving Kindle Unlimited VERY SOON. In a matter of days! But the upside, is the ebook will be on sale, so nab it if you haven’t!

Happy 2023 to those who celebrate, uh, linear time.

I have been pretty much in bed since December 31st and let me tell you a thing about bed rest: it sounds fun but it’s actually very boring. You very quickly get tired of the television, of your phone, of your other sized screens. All the chores you’ve been putting off suddenly seem like the most fun things in the world to do, but when you get up you’re like, oh right. Days drag but also pass quickly because they’re all the same. And you feel terrible.

My dumb brain is like, oh we’re staying home sick? At least we can write. But that’s also not really the case because your brain is mush and you feel terrible. I don’t have covid, and I haven’t had covid (somehow? masking and never going anywhere, mostly and being vaccinated and boosted several times over), but I *am* dealing with a body that is degenerating and will continue to do so at a rate faster than, say, regular aging. It just is what it is.

I spent a lot of my twenties and a good chunk of my thirties just pushing through, but I think those days might be behind me now. So I’m trying to listen to my body and give it what it needs. Bed rest. Steroids, this time. (Yes it is prednisone, and yes, I will accept your condolences because iykyk.) And I’m trying not to feel guilty about missing multiple days of work, because I did try to go to work like this and mostly it resulted in me in unnecessary agony and not really accomplishing anything anyway. When I started with my library system, I was 27 and I thought, I bet I can do this for about ten good years before it all starts to fall apart.

Anyway, this year is my ten year anniversary and while I usually like to be right…well, not this time.

I’m not really sure where that leaves me. I guess we’ll figure it out together. For now, though, I’m going to celebrate what I do have going. I still love being a librarian. I still love writing. I had a great debut and I have two more books in the works. I have a partner that loves and supports me and two dogs that are secretly little demons but are *so cute* that it’s fine.

Northern California is getting absolutely drenched with rain so at least I get gloomy weather and the sound of rain on the roof to keep me company. Anyway my hair is green now, so at least I have that going for me.

3 thoughts on “true that i saw her hair like the branch of a tree

  1. Curator

    I always read all your blog entries and never know what to say. That hasn’t changed. But I’m glad you’re you, I’m sorry you’re in pain, and I hope it helps somewhat to know you’ve brought so many people so much joy with your writing.

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